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w e b l o g SherLonKah ... blending the hearts and lives of Sherry, Lonnie and Kahea as we become one family. This weblog is an outlet of our random thoughts and daily happenings in our lives as told by Sherry - the mommy of Kahea, soon-to-be wife of Lonnie and a woman with hopes, fears and dreams.  | blogs | | guestbook | Sign Guestbook View Guestbook | webrings | « ? Mommies # » « ? blogs by women # » © 2001 SherLonKah |
Monday, May 14, 2001
Friday, May 11, 2001
Either way, it's a sunshiney day. I woke up in an unusually good mood. Now, I'm not normally grumpy when I wake up, but this morning was great. Good mood. No rushing around. Wow. It will be a good day!
Wednesday, May 9, 2001
We've gotten word back from the property management company. Things have worked out and we can move into the townhouse on the 15th. Wow.
Now comes the hard part -- no more procrastination! -- I have to start packing, sorting and organizing things for the move. There is alot to be done before moving day. We have to move Lonnie's furniture and belongings from Houston. I have to move my stuff. I'm getting exhausted just talking about it.
But, things will be so much nicer when we are finally together ... finally!
Tuesday, May 8, 2001
On a much happier note -- Happy Anniversary to my parents. Well, today would have been their 39th anniversary. Such awesome love. I hope my marriage lasts as long as theirs.
Monday, May 7, 2001
The trusted bond that Lonnie and I have has been broken by none other than myself and my fear of the infamous mighty dollar. Yep, that's right. Our first money problem and our first argument is brewing. I made the decision not to reveal past credit history and it has unraveled right before my eyes, just as I thought it would. That was my fear; and, now I know why I didn't want to discuss it. I know in my heart why -- it's sad and painful. A part of my past that will always creep up and haunt me. A dark, sad past I'd like to forget. A sad past that has made me fearful and painstricken inside.
I know I should have told him long before now, but it's just not something I like to face or talk about or ... It has been a fear of mine that I'd be "dumped" because of it. I have before and guess I thought it'd be better to hide behind my fears rather than face them. It's such an inner fear, an inner pain that is hard to share or express or explain. When I realized that I loved Lonnie and that finally I had met the "man of my dreams," I was fearful. I did not want to lose you because of my past. I didn't want to be hurt again. Again. Guess part of that is lost now because of my fears and stupidity. So tough. So, so sad.
Now, not only am I hurt from my selfishness, so is the man I love. I know he is upset and don't blame him, but now the trust is broken. I don't like that. I hate that I did that. That I kept this secret from him. Now he's questioning what else I kept from him and I haven't. I've only sidestepped this credit crap, nothing else. But, how do you forgive someone for keeping a secret? How does that someone that is so special forgive the one he thought was his perfect match?! How do I ask him to keep on loving me as he has in the past? How do I plead for him to forgive me? Does he still trust me and believe in me or have I destroyed us?!
I'm so sad it's literally made me sick. It's made me so sad in my heart ... I can only imagine how much I must've hurt Lonnie. I love him with all my heart and did not want this to happen. I don't want to lose him ... or our love. I feel really, really bad. Sad.
Monday, May 7, 2001
Sunday, May 6, 2001
Kahea and I decided to take a detour to her grandparent's house in Killeen as we drove through the hail. Bell County is getting severe thunderstorms right now as I type. Safe, huh?! There has been tornadoes spotted with the majority of the storm hitting the Stillhouse area. Kahea was a little scared, but handled the situation with care. She prepared our safe haven from the storm -- an inner closet. She packed the closet with blankets, pillows, laptop, dog, water, snacks and reading material. We were set -- one glitch though. With all that in the closet there wouldn't be enough room for us. But, she was doing just as she had been taught -- innermost room, blankets and hover. Proud mommy moment!
This weekend has been somewhat productive though. Lonnie put a deposit on a place -- the western most townhouse in a four-plex. It's small, but a cute place for us to start our family life together. Quick details -- brand new fourplex, neighbors on one side only, two bedrooms, one and a half bath, living room, kitchen / dining room with a dishwasher [and not meaning me!], washer, dryer and lawn maintenance included. Now, hopefully Lonnie will secure a teaching position soon. Soon. We also looked at trucks -- the Toyota Tacoma Prerunner is niiiiiiiiice and just about the right size for us. Downfall -- starts at $25000.
Last night we went to this new hangout in town. This place has been everything from a restaurant to bar to grill turned nightclub / party house and has yet to be successful. We went there last night with some friends. Sheesh. It was BYOB, but should have been BYOC [bring your own chair]. Anyways, we sat there with our friends [of the five, I was the only one not in my forties]. Lonnie remarked that he must be getting old when he thought that a tree in the party house's yard would make a good shade tree rather than a good place to pee. Hehe. No, not getting older, just wiser. Watching all the youngsters [not that I'm old] made me realize just how dumb today's youth are. There they were drinking, dancing, getting loud then going to drive home. Idiots. Enough of that night -- glad we made it home safely and it's over.
Kahea didn't place in her UIL spelling event, but she did good. She worked so hard in preparation for the test. She was sad and discouraged, but I've told her the pros of the event -- good experience, learned how to spell lots of new words, taught her teamwork, taught her that she can't be the best at everything, gave her encouragement to do better. She'll always be a winner to me!
Kahea and I went to her cousin's birthday party this afternoon. Hard to believe that he is already one year old. Seemed just like yesterday that he was born -- heck, seemed like yesterday when Kahea was born [and she's nine years old!] Makes you realize just how fast time flies and that one must take each moment seriously. Capture a memory of time. Relish the moment. Live life to its full each and every day and live today like there's no tomorrow!
Friday, May 4, 2001
Well, yesterday after work I scanned through the classifieds for rental homes. There are numerous homes available, but not sure about the neighborhoods. Like I've told Lonnie, I can make a home out of any house. It's the love shared within that dwelling that makes it a home. I know our place will be filled with lots of love.
Another sweet email from Lonnie this morning -- "Hey babe ... I’ll be up there in a few hours. What’s happening two months from today?" Oh, in two months we'll be gettin' hitched in Las Vegas. It's hard to believe that time has gone by that fast. It doesn't seem fast day to day, but in 60 days I'll be Lonnie's wife. Viva Las Vegas!
I also looked at the calendar and there's only 26 more day until Lonnie and I are together. He'll move north from Houston to central Texas. Wow. 26! ... 25 more days left in this misery ... 24 more days ... countdown!
It's raining this morning ... rain drops keep falling on my head!
Thursday, May 3, 2001
Kahea was excited to see the "crazy snake man" in this morning newspaper. We'll clip it for her scrapbook.
Kahea and I marveled at the sunrise this morning on the way to work. Kahea especially liked the deep purple that was at the horizon. She said that God painted a beautiful sky this morning. So true. I'm happy she takes time out to notice nature's beauty around her. Most kids her age could care less!
Lonnie gave me a wonderful countdown this morning. He has 19 more school days; Kahea has 14. And, he reminded me that there is only two months and one day until "another special day" -- our wedding! Woohoo.
I'm still sad that Kahea won't be there. Pouts. She just kept telling me not to remind her that the summer was coming so soon. She said she's going to be schoolsick and homesick. Poor baby. I also asked her about going with us to Las Vegas and if she was going to write a letter to her father asking if he'll let her. She said, "No, I want to hurry up and get this over with. If I go with you for a week then I'll have to stay there for a week longer." She has a point, but I sure will miss her. Summer, same story.
Why do parents feel they need to have their children for summer visitation when they have nothing to with them any other time of the year? The heartless jerk has nothing to do with Kahea on a daily basis -- he doesn't even know [maybe he doesn't care] if she's passing or failing school, what activities she participates in, that she reads on a sixth-grade level, what types of food she likes and absolutely hates or that she really wants to go with us to Las Vegas. He does know this -- Kahea calls Lonnie "Daddy" and he hates that. Hehe. He told her that she couldn't call him Daddy because that is what she calls her father [Nope, she calls him Dad or Father -- I call him sperm donor!]. I told Kahea to call them what she wants and she chooses to call Lonnie Daddy.
Daddy. Lonnie will be more of a father and daddy to her than he ever has been. Lonnie will be there when she scrapes her knee, passes a test, excels in schools, gets sick, needs help or to talk, goes to college and in the future. Contrary to his initial reaction about my having Kahea and us being a "package deal," Lonnie has adjusted well and will make a wonderful daddy!
There hasn't been much going on as far as the wedding. We're at somewhat of a standstill. Hotel has been reserved, but the rental car won't be rented until next month. The rings are in progress ... I hope! I've thought about making a simple summer dress for the wedding, but still am not sure. I guess I need to decide that pretty quick. Only two more months.
Wednesday, May 2, 2001
Wednesday, May 2, 2001
She got upset because I said that Lonnie and I probably would not do much at Circus Circus since she wasn't going with us. She was mad because I wouldn't be taking pictures of the place for her. I tried to make things better by saying that I'd take as many photos of CC as I could, but she was already hurt. Sigh.
I wish she could go with us to Las Vegas for our wedding. Lonnie and I both wanted her to be there as we begin our family togehter. The problem -- she'll be in Oklahoma, at her father's house for his scheduled summer visitation. He has no heart and does not care if she wants to go to our wedding. Stubborn, heartless jerk.
Today is one more day closer to the end. One more day closer to our beginning. I'm ready for Lonnie and I to be together ... at last. This has been a long school year, but the wait is well worth it. Living hundreds of miles apart is not my idea of fun and gives the saying "distance makes the heart grown fonder" a new persepctive.
Lonnie and I are on the hunt for -- [not particularly in this order]
Kahea lost another tooth while they were on a field trip to Bell County Expo Center in Belton. Among the things she saw, she talked mostly about an albino snake and a wolf. Huge snake in her eyes. A small snake is way too big in my eyes. Anyways, back to the tooth. If she continues to lose teeth like she has been, she'll need dentures soon.
Tuesday, May 1, 2001
I can't believe it is already May. Woohoo! Count it on one hand, one finger -- one month until Lonnie and I are finally together. This has been a long year for us, but it is winding down -- and we're one day closer to each other.
Kahea and I are going to "shoot hoops" today. She is so excited that she can make a basket. The girl has the legs for basketball, just have to work on her form now.
Monday, April 30, 2001
The past weekend went by way too fast. Even though the weeks are getting smaller in number, the days seem to be going by so much slower. The weekdays go by slooooooooow, the weekends go by too fast!
There are only two more months until our wedding -- the joining of our hearts and beginning of our family, SherLonKah. |
And, Happy 1st Birthday to my nephew, Jacob Floyd Strickland.